the beginning of the end

Lift me up, please don't drop me
Lay me down, and feel my heartbeat
This a fight that I'm not winning
Think tonight's when I stop living

Pull me close just hold me there
Pat my head and feel my hair
Know that you weren't unaware
Please forgive me this ain't fair

I found comfort watching clocks
Back and forth my body rocks
Following the ticks and tocks
Counting down til my heart stopped

I feel like you want me gone
I'm a burden, I'm not wrong
I understand I'm hard to watch
I know you cry behind those locks