Stronger Than I Was

You used to say that I'd never be
Nothing without you and I believe
I'm shot in the lungs, I gasp, I can't breathe
Just lay here with me, baby, hold me please
And I'd beg and I'd plead, drop to knees
And I'd cry and I'd scream, "Baby, please don't leave"
Snatch the keys from your hand
I would squeeze and you'd laugh
And you'd tease, you're just fucking with me
And you must hate me
Why do you date me if you say I make you sick?
And you've had enough of me
I smother you, I'm 'bout to jump off the edge

But you won't break me
You'll just make me stronger than I was
Before I met you, I bet you I'll be just fine without you
And if I stumble, I won't crumble
I'll get back up and uhhh
I'ma still be humble when I scream, "Fuck you"
'Cause I'm stronger than I was

A beautiful face is all that you had
'Cause on the inside you're ugly and mad
But you're all that I love
I grasp, you can't leave
Please stay here with me, baby, hold me please
And I'd beg and I'd plead, drop to knees
And I'd cry and I'd scream, "Baby, please don't leave"
But you left and you took everything I had left
And left nothing, nothing for me
So please don't wake me from this dream, baby
We're still together in my head
And you're still in love with me
'Til I woke up to discover that that dream was dead

But you won't break me
You'll just make me stronger than I was
Before I met you, I bet you I'll be just fine without you
And if I stumble, I won't crumble
I'll get back up and uhhh
I'ma still be humble when I scream, "Fuck you"
'Cause I'm stronger than I was

You walked out, I almost died
It was almost a homicide that you caused 'cause I was so traumatized
Felt like I was in for a long bus ride
I'd rather die than you not be by my side
Can't count how many times I vomited, cried
Go to my room, turn the radio on and hide
Thought we were Bonnie and Clyde, nah
On the inside you were Jekyll and Hyde, I
Felt like my whole relationship with you was a lie
It was you and I, why did I think it was ride or die?
'Cause if you could've took my life you would've
It's like you put a knife to my chest and pushed it right through to the
Other side of my back and stuck a spike, too, should've
Put up more of a fight but I couldn't at the time
No one could hurt me like you could've
Take you back now, what's the likelihood of that?
Bite me, bitch, chew on a nineteen footer
'Cause this morning I finally stood up
Held my chin up, finally showed a sign of life in me for the
First time since you left and left me with nothing but shattered dreams
And a life we could've had and we could've been
But I'm breaking out of this slump I'm in
Pulling myself out of the dumps once again
I'm getting up once and for all, fuck this shit
I'ma be late for the pity party
But you're never gonna beat me to the fucking punch again
Took it on the chin like a champ so don't lump me in with them chump-ions
I'm done being your punching bag
It was the November 31st today, would've been our anniversary
Two years, but you left on the first of May
I wrote it on the calendar
Was gonna call, but couldn't think of the words to say
But it came to me just now, so I put 'em in a verse to lay

And I thank you (uh) 'cause you made me (uh)
A better person than I was
But I hate you (uh) 'cause you drained me (uh)
I gave you all, you gave me none
But if you blame me (uh), you're crazy (uh)
And after all that's said and done
I'm still angry, yeah, I may be
I may never trust someone

But you won't break me
You'll just make me stronger than I was
Before I met you, I bet you I'll be just fine without you
And if I stumble, I won't crumble
I'll get back up and uhhh
I'ma still be humble when I scream, "Fuck you"
'Cause I'm stronger than I was

[Couplet 1]
You used to say, that I'd never be
Nothin' without you and I'd believe
I'm shot in the lungs, I gasp, I can't breathe
Just lay here with me, baby hold me please
And I'd beg and I'd plead drop to knees
And I'd cry and I'd scream "Baby, please don't leave"
Snatch the keys, from your hand, I would squeeze
And you'd laugh and you'd tease, you're just fuckin' with me
And you must hate me
Why do you date me if you say I make you sick?
And you've had enough of me
I smother you, I'm 'bout to jump off the edge

[Refrain]
But you won't break me, you'll just make me, stronger than I was
Before I met you, I'll bet you I'll be just fine without you
And if I stumble, I won't crumble, I'll get back up and uuuhhh
But Im'a still be humble, when I scream "Fuck you"
Cause I'm stronger than I was

[Couplet 2]
A beautiful face is all that you have
'cause on the inside you're ugly and mad
But you're all that I love, I grasp, you can't leave
Please stay here with me, baby hold me please
And I'd beg and I plead drop to knees
And I'd cry and I'd scream "Baby, please don't leave"
But you left and you took everything I had left
And left nothin', nothin' for me
So please don't wake me, from this dream baby
We're still together in my head
And you're still in love with me
'til I woke up to discover that that dream was dead

[Refrain]
But you won't break me, you'll just make me, stronger than I was
Before I met you, I'll bet you I'll be just fine without you
And if I stumble, I won't crumble, I'll get back up and uuuhhh
But Im'a still be humble, when I scream "Fuck you"
Cause I'm stronger than I was

[Couplet 3]
You walked out, I almost died, it was almost a homicide
That you caused 'cause I was so traumatized
Felt like I was in for a long bus ride
I'd rather die than you not be by my side
Can't count how many times I vomited, cried
Go to my room, turn the radio on and hide
Thought we were Bonnie and Clyde, nah
On the inside you were Jekyll and Hyde
I felt like my whole relationship with you was a lie
It was you and I, why did I think it was ride or die?
'cause if you coulda took my life you woulda
It's like you put a knife through my chest
And pushed it right through to the other side
Of my back and stuck a spike too shoulda
Put up more of a fight, but I couldn't at the time
No one could hurt me like you coulda
Take ya back now, what's the likelihood of that?
Bite me bitch, chew on a nineteen footer
'cause this mornin' I finally stood up
Held my chin up, finally showed a sign
Of life in me for the first time since you left
And left me with nothing but shattered dreams
And the life we coulda had and what coulda been
But I'm breakin' out of this slump I'm in
Pullin' myself out of the dumps once again
I'm getting up once and for all, fuck this shit
I'ma be late for the pity-party
But you're never gonna beat me to the fucking punch again
Took it on the chin like a champ
So don't lump me in with those "chump-ions"
I'm done being your punching bag
It was the November 31st today
Would have been our anniversary
Two years but you left on the 1st of May
I wrote it on a calendar, was gonna call
But couldn't think of the words to say
But they came to me just now
So I put 'em in a verse to lay
And I thank you 'cause you made me a better person than I was
But I hate you 'cause you drained me
I gave you all, you gave me none
But if you blame me, you're crazy
And after all is said and done
I'm still angry, yeah I may be, I may never trust someone

[Refrain]
But you won't break me, you'll just make me, stronger than I was
Before I met you, I'll bet you I'll be just fine without you
And if I stumble, I won't crumble, I'll get back up and uuuhhh
But Im'a still be humble, when I scream "Fuck you"
Cause I'm stronger than I was

[Verse 1]
Sen olmadan ben bir hiçim derdin ve bende inanırdım
Ciğerime ateş ettim, soluyamıyorum, nefes alamıyorum
Sadece benimle yat, bebeğim, lütfen sarıl bana
Ve sana yalvarıyorum, özür diliyorum, dizlerimin üstüne çöküyorum
Ağlıyorum ve çığlık atıyorum, "Bebeğim, lütfen terketme."
Ellerinden anahtarları zorla alıyorum
Sonra gülüşüyoruz, şakalaşıyoruz, benimle taşak geçiyorsun
Ama yine de benden nefret ediyor olmalısın
Eğer dediğin gibi, seni hasta ediyorsam, neden benimle flört ettin?
Ve de yeterince benimleydin
Seni baskı altında bırakıyorum ve uçurumdan atlamak üzereyim..

[Nakarat]
Beni perişan edemeyeceksin çünkü beni eskisinden daha güçlü yapıyorsun
Senle tanışmadan önce, yemin ederim ki sen olmadan daha mutlu olurdum
Ve eğer hata yaparsam, devrilmeyeceğim, toparlanacağım
Ve "sikeyim seni!" diye bağırdığımda bile hala mütevazıyım
Çünkü eskisinden daha güçlüyüm

[Verse 2]
Sahip olduğun her şey güzel bir yüzdü
Çünkü iç yüzün çirkin ve çılgındı
Ama sevdiğim her şeysin, seni sımsıkı tutuyorum, gidemezsin
Lütfen burada benimle kal, lütfen sarıl bana
Ve sana yalvarıyorum, özür diliyorum, dizlerimin üstüne çöküyorum
Ağlıyorum ve çığlık atıyorum, "Bebeğim, lütfen terketme."
Çünkü sen gitmiştin ve bana kalan her şeyi yanına almıştın
Hiç bir şey bırakmadın benim için, hiç bir şey
Pekala beni bu rüyadan uyandırma bebeğim
Zihnimde hala beraberiz, ve hala bana aşıksın
Ta ki uyandığımda anlıyorum ki rüyam sona ermiş

[Nakarat]
Beni perişan edemeyeceksin çünkü beni eskisinden daha güçlü yapıyorsun
Senle tanışmadan önce, yemin ederim ki sen olmadan daha mutlu olurdum
Ve eğer hata yaparsam, devrilmeyeceğim, toparlanacağım
Ve "sikeyim seni!" diye bağırdığımda bile hala mütevazıyım
Çünkü eskisinden daha güçlüyüm

[Verse 3]
Çıkıp gitmiştin, neredeyse ölüyordum
Neredeyse senin işlediğin bir cinayete dönüşüyordu, travma geçirmiştim
Bu tıpkı uzun bir otobüs yolculuğundaymış gibi hissettirmişti
Benim yanımda olmayacaksan, gebermeyi tercih ederim
Kaç kere kustuğumu hatırlayamıyorum, küçük çocuklar gibi ağlıyorum
Odama giriyorum, radyoyu açıp gizleniyorum
Bonnie & Clyde olduğumuzu düşünürdüm
Yanılmışım, aslında sen Jeykll ve Hyde'dın
Seninle olan tüm ilişkimin yalan olduğunu hissediyordum
Sen ve bendik, *"Neden sür yoksa ölürsün!"* gibi hissediyorum?
Eğer yapabilseydin canımı bile alacaktın, alabilirdin de
Bu şuna benziyor, göğsüme bir bıçak saplayıp sağa doğru ittiriyorsun ve belimin arkasına kadar yarıyormuşsun
Ve büyük çivileri de saplamışsın gibi
Bir tartışma çıkarabilirdim ama yapmamıştım
O zamanlar, senin yaptığın gibi kimse bana zarar vermemişti
Şimdi seni geri alıyorum, ama bunun gerçekleşme ihtimali ne olabilir?
Isır beni kaltak, bu ayakkabıyı da kemir
Bu sabah nihayet ayağa kalktım çenemi yukarı doğrulttum
Nihayetinde beni terk ettiğinden bu yana içimdeki ilk yaşam belirtisini gördüm
Ve bana paramparça hayallerden başka bir şey bırakmadın
Bir hayatımız olabilirdi ve bizde içinde bulunabilirdik
Fakat içinde olduğum krizden kaçıyorum
Kendimi bir kez daha üzüntünün dışına çekiyorum
Birden bire ayağa kalkıyorum, bu boku sikeyim
Özür partisine geç kalmak üzereyim
Ama beni asla siktiğimin yumruğunu atarak yine dövemeyeceksin
Bir şampiyon gibi çenene yumruğu indiriyorum
O halde beni cezalandıramazsın kaybeden, seni yumruk torbam yapıyorum
Bugün 31 Kasım. 2. yılımız ve yıl dönümümüz olabilirdi ama sen Mayıs'ın 1'inde terk ettin
Bu günü takvime not almıştım, seni arayacaktım ama söyleyecek söz bulamıyordum
Ama o sözler şu anda aklıma geldi o yüzden sözleri bir mısraya söylemek için yerleştirdim
Ve sana teşekkür ediyorum çünkü olduğumdan daha iyi birisi olmamı sağladın
Ama senden nefret ediyorum, çünkü beni tükettin, sana herşeyi verdim, sense hiçbir şey vermedin
Eğer beni suçluyorsan, sen delisin ve sonrasında herşey söylenmişti ve bitirilmişti
Hala kızgınım, belkide... Kimseye güvenmemeliydim

[Nakarat]
Beni perişan edemeyeceksin çünkü beni eskisinden daha güçlü yapıyorsun
Senle tanışmadan önce, yemin ederim ki sen olmadan daha mutlu olurdum
Ve eğer hata yaparsam, devrilmeyeceğim, toparlanacağım
Ve "sikeyim seni!" diye bağırdığımda bile hala mütevazıyım
Çünkü eskisinden daha güçlüyüm