Mourning Tarnished

A tragic phone call to notify my lovers death
Catastrophic accident how could it have come to this
With tearful eyes I watched them lower your body into the ground
So I'll take possession of your possessions once your wills read out
What I received disloyalty
My bride to be memories destroyed
You got to die so peaceful undeserving of my undying love
How alone and cold it feels knowing I'm not the only one
In my sickness I admit this cannot live this lie I'm living
Should I join you do I want that I think not your soul is black
I feel you eat at my heart while worms eat at your flesh
You tear my soul apart but cannot draw a breath
In my sickness I admit this life on earth has now been finished
None to live for much to die for lord forgive me I do implore
They can never know why I chose to go
The pain sorrow so pathetic
I can hear her screams calling unto me
In my sleep calling for me
Left to mourn alone
Well how could they have known
That her love I disowned mourning tarnished
She was all I'd known
Now all I know is hate
Violent thoughts I can't erase
I will join you
Now it’s too late to turn back
The blood is ever-flowing
I knew I’d die alone
But not with these organs showing
At the gates of the eternity
I hear your voice is calling I knew I'd find you here
I'll show you the pain I'm holding
This is not my punishment I am yours