Mundane

Fate’s got a tight grip on my soul
I have so many questions still
But I don’t want the answers to some

It seems it was meant to be
That I must never get what I need
Her blue eyes, so beautiful and arousing
She tugs on my heart and brings me to tears
And we’ve never spoke before
Only once in a small room

Before I thought I had a chance
But now I see those don’t exist
For me, I never believed in hope
I don’t believe that I can ever gain love
I can never be loved in return

That’s what I’ve learned after all these years
My current state of loneliness
It will surely last, day and night, night and day
It’ll never let me go, let me be free, be free in me
So why can’t I feel free?
Why can’t I be free?

Every single day burns a hole in my chest
Every single time I ask, they always say
“I don’t feel the same, sorry”
Why do you all do this to me?
Every long, atrocious, and brutal day brings about the same thing
It’s always the same thing, always the same damn thing
Maybe if I just had a hand to hold
And a side to cling to
I could pass each day in flying colors
But dammit, I want it so badly
Why won’t it ever happen?
Why won’t it ever happen for me?