Foreign Xmas

I remember days I used to wake up, go to the Christmas tree
Always shook the presents, trynna figure out what they could be
Open up, there's happiness, I'm glad that was there for me
Now my smile is faker and I hide it when it's genuine
Now there's family drama, I need a comma
Trynna give those good old vibes to my brother
Trynna give advice but no one follow
Time passing faster each year, damn, Christmas is tomorrow
Now I got time to sorrow as I'm looking at the rainy days
Hard pill to swallow, I'm still working on the same mistakes
A few years ago I was playing with my presents
This year I'm just worried my routine is all messed up
I stop my workout sessions, it's vacation, I deserve it
But a little voice inside me calls me waste if I ain't working
Every second on it, if I'm honest I'm still searching
For the best way to live a fucking life and feeling perfect

Christmas time, what is it all about? (All about)
Step inside, everything is foreign now (Foreign now)
Can't the vibe last more this time around (This time around)
Can't decipher why it's falling down (Falling down)

Memories in Boston, memories in Lisbon too
Thinking of some moments while I talk 'bout what I didn't do
What I haven't done yet, I'm upset I'm living too fast
I wish I had some extra years as a little dude
I'll prolly' wish I'd still be this age in a year or two
I'll prolly' wish I was still 18 when I'm 52
Good thing 'bout having kids will be the Christmas mood
I'll be sure to call up Santa for a pic or two
Now I
Soul search 'till I'm fucking wrecked
Then I go ghost like the Christmas past
When it's too much of a fucking mess in my head
I just hope I'm happy where I am ahead
This a foreign Christmas, I'm in favor of the past
Old enough to know my wish but too late to make it last
Don't belong, I'm out of place, or is it me that stayed behind? (Stayed behind)
I'm too focused on the change when I could change my state of mind

Christmas time, what is it all about? (All about)
Step inside, everything is foreign now (Foreign now)
Can't the vibe last more this time around (This time around)
Can't decipher why it's falling down (Falling down, yeah)

Christmas time, what is it all about? (All about)
Step inside, everything is foreign now (Foreign now)