Don't Know

I don't know what I'm doing but I'll figure it out
'Cause my mind state is Pompeii with some lingering doubt
My purpose is anonymous I promise this is not a show
Can't be autonomous, synonymous with seeing crows
Edgar Allen Poe probably could've wrote it better
How I'm just better off giving in to all the pressure
I don't know what I'm doing and I'm doing it well
I fell in a well now my minds in a cell
I try to do the right thing with the choices I'm dealt
But I still undershot heaven now I'm living in hell
This is no exaggeration, no dramatic effect
My very scattered mind must be freaking at it again
Don't confuse my flow, I can be mad with the pen
But I don't need wordplay to convey where I'm in
Right now I'm in a state of restlessness
As I write down my thoughts with some bad penmanship
I don't know what I'm doing help me someone
I don't know what I'm doing help me someone
They say pressure makes diamonds and I'm a diamond in the rough
But the times this diamond is going through is freaking tough
Need more than luck to see the other side of the rainbow
Can't even see it, I should've quit a day ago
With my basic flow, hesitation grows
I'm Eric B. and Rakim but I'm not Paid in Full
And it takes a toll on my spiritual self
Just can't take all the pain I've felt
I know this road is full of holes and tears
And the end goal I'll meet in just a matter of years
And I thank God that I get a chance to live life
But how come every time I struggle you run and hide
I've known you as a strong tower, fortress for the weak
But when I need a light to my path it still looks bleak
I tend to be meek when it comes to this
But right now I'm questioning you're faithfulness
I don't know what I'm doing help me someone
I don't know what I'm doing help me someone