Stuck

Sometimes I question my decisions
I gave myself permission
But when it came to fruition
I really shouldn't have listened
Now my regret is in session
Questions start pressin, messin, hittin my depression (Hey!)
My brain is always overthinking
It is wand'rin but seekin
To find a final solution
But it gets stuck in repeatin
Same cycle of decision makin
It's takin my thinkin off things in this life
That honestly are more important
I'm stuck
The world keeps telling me I'm not enough
Logic versus love and I have almost lost all my luck
I am afraid to live without gaining material stuff
I count every buck
But my life is a bluff
Somedays I'd work from 5 am to 9 pm
A week would pass and I would put as much as 40 hours in
Barely sixteen overworkin because I thought that's how you win
The dollars turned to greed and that was the root of my sin (ooh!)
I couldn't manage my time
I thought I was fine
I saw what was mine
There was still the divide
Always climbing the vine
Should've read the signs
Money can't satisfy
Summer's behind
Can I rewind
After this find
Restart the time
With this new mind
Set and primed
No, I'm sorry
Life doesn't work that way, my apologies
Look at all your mistakes
Live your life differently
You have the choice to make change or stay stuck
Choose wisely
Sometimes I question my decisions
I gave myself permission
But when it came to fruition
I really shouldn't have listened
Now my regret is in session
Questions start pressin, messin, hittin my depression (Hey!)
My brain is always overthinking
It is wand'rin but seekin
To find a final solution
But it gets stuck in repeatin
Same cycle of decision makin
It's takin my thinkin off things in this life
That honestly are more important
I gotta face my choices
Listen to the positive voices
Stay focused
Cut out the background noises
Anxiety's playin, ployin
In my mind it's just toyin
Get out boy
Right now you're done being annoying
The past stays in the past and I don't let it define me
The future that's ahead is something I cannot yet see
In this present moment I get to choose who I want to be, that's reality (Hey!)
There's two options in this
I either choose to stay stuck and reminisce
About the simple life I lived when I was just a kid
Or switch up my mindset
To climb my way up out of this dark pit
I don't have to stay sad
Being depressed is the darkest trap
Happiness is something that doesn't fall straight onto your lap
You gotta work to find it
But it's always gonna be right there ready to grab
A reach away
And then it will stay
Until you push it back
And use it another day
It's your choice to hold onto it, it's your choice to make today
Your choice in your brain
And if you asked me now, happiness is what I would say
Money won't stay
Its value always decays
It's not worth
Working your life away
Not today
Not tomorrow
Do not go that way
Trust me right now
Hear what I have to say
It's never enough
I got out of the cuffs
That made my life suck
And now I'm living, un-stuck