if i run away

If I run away, will all my problems go away
If I died today, would anyone show up to my grave
If I shot to space, would you follow me and stay
If I say your name, will you tell me it's okay
It's okay
I really hate feeling this way
Wiping tears all over my face
Tryna fall asleep cuz I'm counting sheep
Thinking maybe it'll disappear tomorrow
Waking up cold sweat cuz I'm drowning in my sorrows
Take a pill upset, I don't really wanna swallow
When it hits me bet, I ain't talking Monte carlo
Hit the lotto and I
Still wouldn't drive that car
On the outside still tryna act my part
On the inside killed cuz she broke my heart
When I left the thrills chasing after my God
Cuz I looked into the world, tryna fill me up
Got the dopamine hit, I don't need no drugs
Started giving me swirls, then it filled my cup
Feel my stomach in a pit, that's just my luck, my luck, my luck
If I run away, will all my problems go away
If I died today, would anyone show up to my grave
If I shot to space, would you follow me and stay
If I say your name, will you tell me it's okay
Start to wake up, start another day
Sunrise morning, let it hit my face
Praise my Lord cuz he never walks away
Sit in the sun, while I sit in his grace
Cuz he never disappears when I'm running on my own
Yeah he never gets offended when I don't answer my phone
Cuz I'm the one that's broken when he calls me to his throne
Yeah I promise I'm not perfect, I can't do this all alone
I'm weak, I'm broken, come save me
Your grace, your mercy, all I need
My God, my Savior, give me peace
My soul, be silent, calm and free
I don't know what tomorrow holds
In my head cuz I'm on my own
Overthink going down this road
Start to pray cuz I feel alone
If I run away, will all my problems go away
If I died today, would anyone show up to my grave
If I shot to space, would you follow me and stay
If I say your name, will you tell me it's okay