Long Run

I'm scared to make new friends
I'm scared to fall in love again
I'm scared to run away
I'm scared to drown myself inside the cup of my mistakes
I look at all my family and to where I've been in life
I learn that when you love someone its gonna hurt you twice
Once when they leave, once when moving on
The worst one is when you know that they're gone
And no matter what you do
It's gonna be that way for the long run
I learned that the hard way, chasing life far away
Listen to my heart say, she's the one for your days
Listen to my feels before I listen to the Lord
And then I go too far where I get stuck behind the door
I start fighting for an exit running all over the floor
But there's no way but forward where I face what's been in store
Does not thinking bout you make it better?
Or does thinking bout you make it worse?
I say I'm moving on
But really I'm just scared
To try to love again
Cuz working out is rare
Another friend leaving, I'm sitting here grieving
People moving on like all the changes in the season
It seems to me like every time I open up to anyone
I become a burden and I feel like I just weigh a ton
And then they say goodbye because their life tells them they have to run
And then I start to wonder should I pull the trigger on this gun
But I know better than to end this life because it ain't that fun
I start to find my peace inside these lyrics and the setting sun
I needed a break but I still needed you
I wanted the space, but needed the view
We made a promise that we would stay the same
But then we both went out and we began to change
I saw you this summer and I managed to say hi
I said it's good to see you but to be real that's a lie
Cuz I'm feeling paralyzed and I'm trembling inside
Now you're wanting to be friends but I'm still not ready
I'm still writing songs about our past unsteady
I'm scared to make new friends
I'm scared to fall in love again
I'm scared to run away
I'm scared to drown myself inside the cup of my mistakes
I look at all my family and to where I've been in life
I learn that when you love someone its gonna hurt you twice
Once when they leave, once when moving on
The worst one is when you know that they're gone
And no matter what you do
It's gonna be that way for the long run