River Spirit

How many days now have I sat here, feeling bitter and depressed?
Smoking cobwebs and eating only the words that I'd spoken when you left

If I get high enough I'll never miss you again
If I wait long enough maybe I will be happy in the end

Let me see, let me feel the river coursing through my veins
(Making amends was never an option once we crossed the threshold)
Let these scars I brandished wash away with the tides of yesterday
(Careful analysis of the situation paints a picture)
Let me breathe, I feel suffocated, crushed by all the weight
(The word dysfunction barely covers it, it was torturous)
Of all these expectations
Time can't heal all pain

And even if it could
I'm pretty sure I'd do the same damn thing
Losing you despite how I'd tried so hard
I lost myself along the way

Now you're gone so I should feel at peace
Except, I left a part of me the day that I decided to leave

Let me see, let me feel the river coursing through my veins
(Making amends was never an option once we crossed the threshold)
Let these scars I brandished wash away with the tides of yesterday
(Careful analysis of the situation paints a picture)
Let me breathe, I feel suffocated, crushed by all the weight
(The word dysfunction barely covers it, it was torturous)
Of all these expectations
Time can't heal all pain
(Time can't heal all fucking pain)

Take 'em back
All the words they said to me
Remove them all
The callousness that still remains
Take me back
To yesterday when I was clean
Nothing's ever been the same
And will never be again

I've never been the same

Let me see, let me feel the river coursing through my veins
Let these scars I brandished wash away with the tides of yesterday
Let me breathe, I feel suffocated, crushed by all the weight
Of all these expectations
Time can't heal all pain