New Year's Eve

Why can't I breathe?
What's this feeling?
We were in the wrong place for a year
Now I'm in a long game with my fears

I don't know what happened
Where the time went
How the languages we speak are different
I don't know what happened
What if I said that I'm sorry, and I fucking mean it
I don't know how to make the past align
With a present state of mind
Where I am happy and okay
(And just live for today)

Memories trickling down onto me

I don't know what happened
Where the time went
How the languages we speak are different
I don't know what happened
What if I said that I'm sorry, and I fucking mean it
I don't know how to make the past align
With a present state of mind
Where I am happy and okay
And just live for today

Let the current carry me
Lifeless and cold
To Hell where I can be unborn
Destroy me
Annihilate me
Over and over, for eternity
Not a fucking second of serenity
Levels of pain beyond suffering
Would that make you happy?

I don't know what happened
Where the time went
How the languages we speak are different
I don't know what happened
What if I said that I'm sorry, and I fucking mean it
I don't know how to make the past align
With a present state of mind
Where I am happy and okay
And just live for today