Calm

I can't calm down and it's been years
And Nevada casinos don't hold me like they once did
And barely my girlfriend
With her quiet laugh and strong will
It seems like only bars
Where it must be dark and the music must be low

But I'm not trying to push anything down
I'm just trying to calm down
I'm not trying to knock anyone down

It's just the uncertainty of time
And claustrophobic air
Surround myself in pills but that wouldn't really be me at all
So sometimes late at night I will walk around
And for a moment I'll have certainty
And for a little while I'll feel complete
But then I'll feel it go and then I'll blame everyone that I know

But I'm not trying to put anyone down
I'm just trying to calm down
I'm not trying to knock anyone around
I'm just trying to calm down

And it's been years
And it's been years

I'm not trying to knock anyone around
I'm just trying to calm down
I'm not trying to put anyone down
I'm just trying to calm down