My Own World

So much distance between us
And I can't win you with brilliance
'Cause you see through my decisions
And I'm not used to your distrust

And maybe I was lying when I said
I had your best interests in mind
I was so caught up in comfort that
I ignored the octo-red signs

And maybe I was lying when I
Convinced myself we'd be fine
But you stare at me, emotionally resigned

Past forgiveness, so fleeting
Old wounds open and bleeding
The scorecard gives me a meaning
So I continue competing

And maybe I was trying when I said
I had your best interests in mind
I was so caught up in progress that
I ignorеd the octo-red signs

And maybe I was trying whеn I
Convinced myself we'd be fine
But I stare at you, emotionally confined

So much silence as you disturb
Any peace with meaningless words
You don't care of what I deserve
You stare at me from your own world

I think yelling would be preferred
To your silent lack of concern
You won't tell me what I deserve
I'm alone now in my own world