overthinking

News to me, the progress has gone down to shame and infamy.
Working doing me, tryna' better the mirrors delivery.
A better scene, picture perfect was the finish line,
But lately I'm behind, record time, attempt to better my life.
Shit has gone crazy!
All I know is to blame me.
Felt like i'm finally changing, but I'm here faking.
Reality hating, the vision is shaking, and I'm still waiting yo'.
Swear I was getting somewhere, making progress, treating the reflection fair.
Writing my name like I was somebody,
Till reality hit, made me aware.

Pardon my delusion.
Fall for the illusions.
Locked in my confusion.
Looking for redemption.
Hope I did this all right, now that I'm at new heights
Is this another bad night, who am I?

I'll be honest it's been getting to my head, nah'.
Second guessing myself again.
Woke up on the right side of the bed , thinking it could be different for a sec'.
For the first time I was truly feeling like me, finally ending up where I was tryna' be.
Till the stupid shit put me in this mess.
Overthinking done killed my confidence.

No shortage of motivation to go and do me
and take the long way to the end.
Celebration, selfish party, let fate keep me picky with love.
Not like I said I was done.
This only the beginning of the run.
I'm grinding and nothing can stop me
except for the innocent things you thought were fun.
Tell me I'm wrong.
New all along, that i was just playing my part so dumb.
Lonely as a mof', but I go on.
While I keep on thinking you're the one I want.
Been calling me bro, like it's really endearing.
Knowing that I'm trying to get you to believe me.
Maybe the ugly sides finally confessed?
I'm alone, I'm hurt, I'm scared, I'm stressed.

Pardon my delusion.
Fall for the illusions.
Locked in my confusion.
Looking for redemption.
Hope I did this all right, now that I'm at new heights
Is this another bad night, who am I?

I'll be honest it's been getting to my head, nah'.
Second guessing myself again.
Woke up on the right side of the bed , thinking it could be different for a sec'.
For the first time I was truly feeling like me, finally ending up where I was tryna' be.
Till the stupid shit put me in this mess.
Overthinking done killed my confidence. Said I'm always the first to blame it on me.
Nothing wrong with no, its all for show, I've been alone.
We could call it insecurity.
We could call it doubt, but none of it will matter if I'm not what I'm about.
Talk it out, say it loud, say it proud, not for clout, reach the clouds.
I'm the biggest thing in my way to identity.
Pedigree been telling me, I'm already a 10 you see.
I'm getting way ahead of things, questioning my everything.

Pardon my delusion.
Fall for the illusions.
Locked in my confusion.
Looking for redemption.
Hope I did this all right, now that I'm at new heights
Is this another bad night, who am I?

I'll be honest it's been getting to my head, nah'.
Second guessing myself again.
Woke up on the right side of the bed , thinking it could be different for a sec'.
For the first time I was truly feeling like me, finally ending up where I was tryna' be.
Till the stupid shit put me in this mess.
Overthinking done killed my confidence