The Arsonist

I feel a fire in my guts
So what? I'm crying
I don't know why I can't shut up
So what? I'm trying

To deny
The way I feel about all of you guys
But when I close my eyes
Deny, deny, deny
Until I die

You'd think I'd do it all so well
[hold on- why is that?]
Since I'm who I am
[and who is that?]
The motherfucking king of Hell
But deep inside I can't deny

My heart is open to the thought
Of being broken all of my life
I feel like I wanna try
Be by your side
Though I am mortal

Though I try
I can't deny
What I feel deep inside my guts
Even if this is nuts
Am I making a fool of myself?
What the hell, right?

A twisted cyclone
Of dark thoughts and what I want
And all that sucks
And stupid fucks
And missed opportunities
Oh what you do to me
Why don't you set me on fire
Or give me community?

Maybe I don't know what I want
So what? I'm trying
Maybe I've given all I've got
So what? I'm trying to provide
The things I feel I've missed my whole life
But when I close my eyes
All I see are my guys
And in them I am immortal