The Bed's Too Big Without You

No matter how often we do it
I never get used to it
Leaving you is always agony
So now I'm dragging my heels through
The frog and squeel of london feeling undone
Completely unable to function without
Playing over all
The little creases of your laughing face
We argued over nothing late last night
We knew our heats would break as soon as the
Dawn did and I closed the door behind you
But time is precious
We cling on to each other
Feeling panicky and restless
Every moment urgent
We are volatile and wreckless
As we kiss until our edges fray
As if a child’s hand had sketched us
So here I am again

While you watch another city rise and fall in
The bat and ball nature of our phonecalls
Its enough to make me pack it all
In and run back to you
But we knew it would be like this
I watch the people holding hands
And none of them know it feels
To wake up with your body
Endless and intent on giving all it's
Warmth and playfulness to mine
It was dawn in your attic room
When noone ever loved but us
But now your absence comes from me
I clutch my guts and stomp on
Seats and ride the bus
As numbness creeps across the parts
Of me that you touched
Because you and your absoluteness is vivid
The rest is passing shades
Insipid faces masquerade as humans
I see through them
They're just counting down the hours
Like we all are
Till you can hold me to your bones
And call my name into existence
And now I'm flirting with your absence
It talks gently and I listen
In my mind I let our lips collide
I shot my eyes, transcend this distance
But all around me
The world just plays on at being real
But nothing’s real without your
Feel to feel me
Kneel me down and leave me nearly
Drowned in all your raging glory
I wasn't real until you saw me
Now I'm alone in bed stuffing
Your shirt into my face
Oh there's hardly a smell of you left
All I can smell is my breath
I smoke your cigarettes and I
Listen to your favorite songs
And tell myself one day we'll look back and
Smile and say this made us strong
But right now right now I'm
So fucking lonely for you
I'm giving all my money to the
Homeless men with dirty feet
That smoke crack on the hight street
Just so I can smile at them
Expose the whites of my teeth
As the night descends
The mood I'm in tonight
Any minute now my life could end
Even though I know it's just a few weeks now
I breath out when I hope that you can sleep
How the days fall into weeks is a mystery
It happens though suddenly a month is up
And I’m tricking everyone into thinking
I am coping well
Only your absence knows the truth
Oh it rolls and it swells
And it's sucking on my toes in a lonely hotel
Its all bodily
Its not even my head thinks about you
Its my hands, my skin, my nipples
Its my stupid lips that pronounce
You all the time
I lay next to where you should be
And I begin to doubt that
You ever even happened i flinch
I don't know to fill this aching space
I lay awake and miss the way your mouth moves
I hate the sheets, the covers
Your absense becomes a vacuum
I can’t shout through
There's no romance in it
To have lost you so soon after I found you
So I throw myself around
And think the bed’s too big without you