I Wish He Would Make Me

[Verse 1]
Carpe Diem, the philosophy I've come to embrace
On a trek to find myself, with God pleading my case
I no longer wanna straddle the fence of the agnostic
Due to my success, within my flesh, I've become a hostage
My light doesn't shine anymore, a dimmer switch has darkened the filament
I was the sun, now I'm a star in the skies of ignorance
My heart's become hate trapped within this frozen puddle
Now dispensing soul's reflections soaked in subtle hypocrisy
I've disgraced my own name, because I'm living life logically
Consistent with the secular realm, an illogistic dichotomy
I haven't lost faith, but I've misplaced my spirituality
Hope an ocean is created for relationship to float in reality
'Cause now I'm trapped in the storm's eye, these heavy rains I can't handle
Need to become a lighthouse instead of a flickering candle
Need to rededicate my life, don't know if I'm ready
I know I have to make a choice, but I wish he would make me

I've strayed from the path predestined for me
I'm ill now, but walking right, I'd be an iller MC
I know I can overcome this rut 'cause God put it in me
But I have to find it, stop walking this earthly road blinded
Every word read is God-given, this is my theory
I'm in a place now that doesn't compare to where I could be
I know I can overcome this rut 'cause God put it in me
But I have to find it, stop walking this earthly road blinded

[Verse 2]
Due to my reflection, I've lost love 'cause God was an afterthought
Showed me the one prepared for me, she was snatched from my heart
I understand the mirror of pain, gave a nice view
Revealing what I had to do to be reshaped and made anew
This is hard 'cause for a while I wouldn't look in God's direction
Pissed 'cause I had this life of disappointment and rejection
But I've come to realize that when I fell in this rut
God was tearing me down so he could build me back up
See, I've been caught to rock a crowd with an anointing like no other
And be a prime example for my friends and my brothers
Now I need the strength to take the step from this shadow
Giving my silhouette features as my teacher points the arrow
I was told sin's wide and righteousness is narrow
I must prepare for it to be just guiding me, the way through the sea
I need to rededicate my life, don't know if I'm ready
I know I gotta make a choice, but I wish he would make me

I'm locked in this cage and only I have the key
I'm trying to pick the lock without surrendering completely
I know I can overcome this rut 'cause God put it in me
But I have to find it, stop walking this earthly road blinded
I'm tired of having my eyes covered, I'm trying to see
The Promised Land over the mountain waiting for me
I know I can overcome this rut 'cause God put it in me
But I have to find it and stop walking this earthly road blinded
I have to find it and stop walking this earthly road blinded
I have to find it and stop walking this earthly road blinded
I have to find it and stop walking this earthly road blinded
God, I wish he would make me

[Vocal Sample]
Sing praise to the Lord hallelujah
Sing praise to the Lord hallelujah
Sing praise to the Lord hallelujah
Sing, sing to my lord
Sing praise to the Lord hallelujah
Sing praise to the Lord hallelujah
Sing praise to the Lord hallelujah
Sing, sing to my Lord