Impulse

It’s like a sick obsession
I feel it in my bones
It’s not my fault just blame it on the lack of self-control

I start to lose myself when I feel the drip
It doesn’t matter the taste as long as I get my fix

It’s not a problem
It’s not a problem
I’m not addicted this is only a phase
A lie we tell ourselves to hide from the shame

So give me
Just another bump to settle the nerves
Just another empty bottle ‘cause it’s what we think we deserve
Why aren’t these fucking pills numbing the pain?
Spend another lonely night just erasing the day
Decay

So give me more, more, more
Til I can’t feel at all
Descending quicker
And I can’t stifle the fall

It’s as if my mind resides in a cage
This is all I need to aid an escape
And It’s always good but it’s never enough

So give me
Just another bump to settle the nerves
Just another empty bottle ‘cause it’s what we deserve
Why aren’t these fucking pills numbing the pain?
Every single fucking day I swear I’m going insane

So I load up on this poison just to cover my thoughts
Chase it with another one-night stand I’ll forget like the hundreds before
I know I’m broken but I can’t seem to change
Maybe if I scrub hard enough I’ll erase the stains?
But I can’t shake the feeling
I’ll end up dying this way
Losing control of my life
To the vices I take
So here’s to one more night spent reversing the ache
Praying tomorrow's the day I find peace while awake

Regress. Reset. Begin Again