Lost in My Infinite Memory

Hi, how are you these days?
Everything seems sort of crazed
And I feel so lazy, I could cry
I feel like I could lay down and die

And I feel like my life is already gone
And it seems so hard just to get it on
Though I think I'll try just for fun
Though I fail

I love you all but I hate myself
And there doesn't seem to be anyone who can help
And everything has turned out bad
I'm so sad

Why do you think I'll never give up?
Drinking from my broken cup
Although I'll never get enough
I'll never fall in love again
It's a sin, I just can't win

It's like we were both stupid fools
And hatred and horror ruled our worn out brains
It's the same old songs of pain
Gone public domain

And it seems as if the road just goes on and on
And I'm gonna write a letter to my friend
Ron and my dad is outside mowing the lawn
Till the dawn