Then & Now

God i been selfish ik & i admit it
You gave me all these chances i did nothing with it
Focused on temporary happinesses & women
But sometimes
It takes the wrongs turns to make the right decision
But i'm better so i guess it was part of your plan
If i could go back i'd probably do all it again
Cause we don't live in regret dawg we live & learn
You get all praise , i'm living a life i ain't earn

Pockets are getting fatter
Women are getting badder
Hatters are getting louder
I'm starting to hear they chatter
But i block it out
Typa shit that make chris pull his rocket out
Remember recording on a free trail at my mommas house
Set up in her room as she slept on the couch
She knew i would make it it was a fact to her
So imma go and imma get it bring it back to her
And you know once we get it getting back to work
Cause i got family to feed
Big ass family tree
If you got blood in your veins dawg you family to me
Fuck all that family beef
Yea making the moneys cool but i'm trynna make peace
I said im trynna make peace
Uh true joy & all of that other noise
The kids are well feed the baby play with her toys
Kiss your parents on the head one day you gon' miss their voice
Living life how i wanna
Doing it with a poise
As happy as i can be cause doing it was my choice

A lot of you not gone like me when it's all said & done
If i ain't a loser to some
I know ain't really won
I could kill off every fake
I know i don't need a gun
If i don't do this shit myself i don't know who'd get it done

Only took a few times at the club to realize i don't like it
But i go
Cause i gotta let my people see they nigga
And keep these niggas aware of who that nigga
For real
Who really got it like me
The flow is sweet as ice tea
Been doin this since i was 9 y'all think i start at 19
Young vetty
My nigga i was born ready
Shawty i can't rock steady
Been busy eating spaghetti
Italian girls are my weakness told my ex stop acting petty

People look for a reason to lash out
I got your mascara
They thought tripterror inc was my last era
Yea look at me now i'm shining brighter than ever
And i just keep getting better
Can't be ahead if it's severed
I been the head not the tail
Look in my eyes you can tell

The vision was given at a young age
Nigga i am un-phased
I was destined to bring change
From west end the king came
This just end now i reign

Four dollars & a retweet got us king of diamonds monday
Now a message & a retweet get the garden on a sunday
Let'em preeeach
Product of the streets
Fighting on my knees for like 52 weeks each year praying for release
I'm my only enemy cause they can't injury me unless i let'em
My people told me do not ever sweat'em
Theses people wouldn't listen to a word you say unless i said'em
That's how hard they ridin'
That's how good i got it
I know God gon' guide me
Weight of the world on me
I know he gon' spot me
Yea i know he gon' spot me

Built habit of reminiscing
Blorifying bad decisions
Put way too much into women
Compromising my religion
A habit of asking for forgiveness instead for permission
I'm doing my best to make a change lord'll be my witness

It really got me when
My dad said his higher purpose is me
He got the world on his back he said he hand me the keys
What so special about me
Don't think i'm fit for the ring
What did I do to deserve it
I ain't pick to be king
Uh
They said it's out of reach
I said it's not enough
I'm not one to turn around just cause the road is tough
See i gun good under pressure
Y'all could never stop me
Imma cut from a fabric that y'all could never copy

I gotta do this they expecting me to come thru
Counting on me i won't let'em down i ain't the 1 2
Oh God give me the strength
I give you the glory
I surrender everything so you can keep writing my story
Yea

Growing up i was the rich kid on the block
But they never saw behind close doors & they ain't think to knock
Just a boy without a ladder reaching for the top
But if i said that i'm gon' have it believe that's what i got
Yea
Everything i am is what's been built up thru the years
Blood sweat & tears
Facing my fears
I lost some peers
Just to gain the worlds ears
Fighting for my vision sometimes it got a little gory
But i got a lifetime to tell y'all the rest of the story