Mindtricks: Heroin

I'm about to break down
Looking for something to hide now
I am too much traumatized from losing my loved ones
To the drugs, to the high
Why can't i just die
Painful as it is
I can't quit my nonsense bullshit mindtricks
If this won't quit ill just end it
I'll see myself in hell
You know where ill sit
Between my loved ones who died of this shit