​they don't understand

I can't blame you
You don't know what's goin' on in my head
It's hard to go outside when you
Think everything circumstance turns red
And what it could be in a minute
That shit just ends up dead
I don't like talking about it
Lets just move it on instead
I hate bein' a mess, can't get up out of bed
Don't like this party life
I probably need some rest
I can't go out too dressed
They'll probably beat my chest
And eat me up alive until I'm
Fighting for my last breath

Do you believe in karma? I do
Well for sure know it exists
I'll be an asshole 'til I'm 18
I can probably take a hit and 20 more
I've cried on my floor too much before
'Cause every time you left me that
Was something I couldn't ignore
But recently it feels like you
Never fucking hated me more
And when you open that shit
Hit straight through my core
It either hurts more when I know
That's that shit that I adore
You seem so perfect
You're something I can't get over with
And even if I do
I know I'll fucking miss you
Probably go fucking kiss you
Treat you like a real girl
Knowing it's an issue for me

I can't blame you
You don't know what's goin' on in my head
It's hard to go outside when you
Think everything circumstance turns red
And what it could be in a minute
That shit just ends up dead
I don't like talking about it
Lets just move it on instead
I hate bein' a mess, can't get up out of bed
Don't like this party life
I probably need some rest
I can't go out too dressed
They'll probably beat my chest
And eat me up alive until I'm
Fighting for my last breath