miss the memo

I just wanna vent to the mic, huh (I'm seeing shit out the corner of my eyes when I'm Recording this)
Vent to the mic about my life huh
Yuh, ugh, look huhhh (I swear it's angels around me for real)
Did I miss the memo?
Tell me where my kin go
Talking Grandma, Cousin Vincent, and like all of them folks
I really miss you, you know
Things been so different you know
Everyday I'm just wishing I was with you some more, oh
Recently I been so lost in translation
It's like I'm holding together but then I'm losing my patience
I'm just so tired of waiting
I'm just so tired of fake shit
Everywhere that I'm looking I see temptation by Satan
It's quite amazing
But it's oh so draining
All these pictures that I painted
Like I was Picasso
It ain't black and white like vitiligo
Tell me where did I go
Sipping on my tea like Uncle Iroh
D.C. girls give eyerolls
I just burn shit down like I'm a pyro
Pyromaniac, some say I'm worse than that I'm an arsonist
My pockets crip
Come on now, you know I'm sensitive like an artist is
Fuck the politics
They ain't ever really ever give a shit
Still fighting for equality
Can't let them all take all of me
What colleges really care about education and where the knowledge is?
'Cause tuition is like I'm sponsoring a scientific dichotomy
When it should be free
Education is a human need
And I ain't dumb
I had a 4.0 my whole damn life
Niggas try to act like I ain't nice
Until you listen to this album, play this shit back thrice
Or maybe four, five
I come from where kids carry four 9s
Concealed under coat binds
Three, six shots it's go time
I try to sit back, take a breather and relax a bit
But I'll feel like I lack and anxiety just starts attacking again
All these stressors, pressures stacking in
Life is moving fast as shit
So I just had to ask somebody was there something that I missed
Did I miss the memo?
Tell me where my kin go
Talking Grandma, Cousin Vincent, and like all of them folks
I really miss you, you know
Things been so different you know
Everyday I'm just wishing I was with you some more, oh
All these bumps and bruises, pain contusions
Man this brain is so confusing
Pick and choosing
Who you losing?
Almost everyone that I hold close
Now my heart is on froze that's chromatose
Need an extra dose to revitalize my soul
God, He let me know
They try to tell me that I'm free but everyday I'm slaving
Irony, Emancipation Proclamation
Seeing future visions like I'm Raven
Tryna break these curses, the ones that's generational
Like Future said my future looking oh so sensational, huh
But it ain't the same without the ones I lost
And I lost them all but at what cost?
Just tryna find peace and answers through my God
Just know I love all y'all
You'll live on through my heart
I just wish when my phone rings that it was your call so tell me
Did I miss the memo?
Tell me where my kin go
Talking Grandma, Cousin Vincent, and like all of them folks
I really miss you, you know
Things been so different you know
Everyday I'm just wishing I was with you some more, oh