Not All There

I know I should have been there
Might seem like I don't care
It's hard for me to be in touch
When these days are too much
It's selfish
I hate it
I'm sorry
You deserve more
It's selfish
I hate it
I'm sorry
You deserve more
I'm just not all there
Wish I could be a better friend
But I'm just not all there
After all we've been through
I don't want to lose you
But can't have you around
We bring each other down
It's selfish
I hate it
I'm sorry
You deserve more
It's selfish
I hate it
I'm sorry
You deserve more
I'm just not all there
Wish I could be a better friend
But I'm just not all there
I don't wanna be alone
But it's all I can handle
Can't take anything from anyone
I feel bad letting down my day 1
I'm just not all there
I will be better friend
Once I'm all there