To My Mother

[Verse 1]
See I was livin' in a drughouse
In a fucked up not enough town
Who knew only my life would go down
And so loud
Don’t know how
To focus
Please don’t notice
You don’t know this
I’ve been through shit
And if I can know mom are you wasted
Please don’t waste this
I know it’s hard
And it’s stupid but I’ve been takin' part
It’s like I got stabbed with a fuckin' glass shard
Ay
Yeah

[Chorus]
Time will go by, where, I can’t feel emotions
Momma please be, please be fuckin' proud
Times will go by where, I won’t even cry
But, part of me will always wanna die

[Verse 2]
I remember sleepin' on the ground
And the money that was found
We’d do our best to feed ourselves
And at least that fuckin' helped
You always did your best to be there
And you tried to make it be fair
On me
But momma I want you to eat
Mom I never want you to leave
But I guess I’ll see
How it’ll be
And I I can’t let u go
I won’t tell my tale
To the fullest
If you listened when I told it

[Verse 3]
Mom we gon' eat in a mansion
No more sins
Sometimes I think I’m a failed fuckin' abortion
With my mental state
And my fucking self hate
And I hate myself for only bringing my friends pain
My best friend hated me and I scared to say hey
Like is that what you say
Momma help me out
Dad tells me to go north but you say south
Fuck why would I ask when you can’t figure your own shit out

[Chorus]
Time will go by, where, I can’t feel emotions
Momma please be, please be fuckin' proud
Times will go by where, I won’t even cry
But, part of me will always wanna die

[Verse 4]
I don’t know how to fucking focus
And if you can’t tell or fucking notice
I hate my life and I’m probably at my lowest
And trying to love myself to the fuckin' fullest
And I’m probably the fuckin' slowest
Why am I telling you this you already know
Focus
Focus
Focus
Fuck