Intro

[Intro]
Yeah.
Feeling mad emotions.
Shit got me in my feelings.
Aight, look.

[Verse 1]
Life changed at like seventeen.
More passionate than I have ever been.
Going through more shit than I have ever seen.
Looking at my idols, found myself a dream.
Write the pain away, tryna' write me sane.
Write about my life and 'bout what's on my brain.
You ain't gonna realize 'fore it's too late.
That you threw away your days, life gone to waste.
Found a bunch of beats and started writing to it.
The feeling I get, there ain't nothing to it.
Another day, in my head another fight.
Don't wanna be content with my fucked up life.
Don't wanna live a life that I don't even love.
Don't wanna reach the point where I had enough.
All about the money, fam, fuck that shit.
Never gave a fuck about being rich.
Fuck this life, I gotta make a change.
Pursuit of happiness, I gotta change my ways.
It's in my hand to get the brighter days.
Said I loved that shit, but that was just a fase.
Noticed life ain't really what it seems.
Really gotta learn to live it just for me.
So fuck what you think and fuck what you're doing.
That shit you talkin' 'bout just ain't what I'm pursuing.
Fuck your business, I wanna live my dream.
Made a plan, can't you see me scheme?
Fuck your opinion, just let me be me.
Just do yourself, man, it's that easy.
Gotta prove to only myself that I can do this.
Can't care 'bout opinions, man that shit is foolish.
They be hitting your line, tell these fuckers "who this?".
Be the honest with myself, gotta be the truest.

[Verse 2]
Go do something with your life.
Said that for years, still scared to strive.
I know it's all in my own mind.
Still so scared of what I'll find.
So many people died and they ain't even try.
To attain their dreams and I'm wondering why.
Cause it's make-believe, do what you love.
It's fake to me, that push came to shove.
Same old day, just another week.
Depressed as fuck, just wanna go to sleep.
Ain't afraid to talk about it, being honest here.
This the place to talk about my fears.
Looking at the world thinking "who am I?".
Just another one? Or is there more to me?
Looking in the mirror thinking "who am I?".
Man, I am me and I'm proud to be.
We all going through shit, man we know of this.
So much hate we face, on your phone that is.
Like a baby face, but old we is.
Don't know shit, we been over this.
Social media gave me major doubts.
Unfollowed everybody, you can keep that cloud.
I don't care about the fucking likes.
I don't care about your great fake life.
Cause everybody know that shit is just a facade.
All that shit be doing is making a mirage.
Smiles on the gram, we all know that's fake.
Like some halloween mask you're wearing on your face.
I know I gotta try before I die.
Otherwise I can never be satisfied.
Why keep on living when you hate your life?
Wasting time you don't have doing shit you don't like.
Lately I been thinking about my fears.
Thinking 'bout this life and 'bout why I'm here.
So many thoughts people will never hear.
So here it goes, I'll try to make it clear.
I'm scared of heights and I'm scared to fly.
I'm scared of change and I'm scared to try.
I'm scared of truth and I'm scared inside.
Scared of anything, guess I'm just scared of life.
Why am I thinking 'bout my legacy?
Why am I so focussed on my destiny?
Too much thinking "will they remember me?"
How long will it take 'fore they forget 'bout me?
I know what it's like when you had enough.
I know what it's like when this shit gets rough.
I know what it's like, but don't give up.
When you fall, you gotta get back up.
So scared of living an average life.
Always been kinda scared to strive.
Always felt like I was destined for more.
But if I don't live my dream, what am I dreaming for?
Comparison is the thief of joy.
Gotta learn to sit back in the moment and enjoy.
Stop caring what other people think of me.
Living for me, all that shit just sickens me.

[Verse 3]
Even if I fail, at least I fucking tried.
Tried to pursue my dreams before I fucking die.
I know I can do this, don't you fucking lie.
Telling me to quit this shit, ask these fuckers "why?".
Rapping in the mirror, envisioning the stages.
Thinking of a life that is fucking crazy.
Every day that I'm alive, man, it must amaze me.
Rapping about my past, about the things that made me.
Waking up at 5, thinking "what am I doing?"
Going to school for a life I'm not even pursuing.
I doubt myself, I know I prolly shouldn't.
Only know it's too late when you feel the bullet.
Rewrote this track like 10 fucking times.
OCD, I wasn't satisfied.
Had this beat on repeat for the entire week.
Tryna' catch the vibe, tryna' bring the heat.
Lately more than ever I been laying on my bed.
Staring at the ceiling with these questions in my head.
Thinking 'bout this life and why I'm always feeling sad.
Thinking 'bout my moves and why everything feels bad.
Know I gotta find peace, gotta be in myself.
Really gotta start thinking about my mental health.
They pursuing money, that ain't the key to wealth.
Fuck the others, gotta think 'bout yourself.
What do you think at the end of the road?
Looking back on your life and everything you were told.
All they been feeding you was lies everyday.
Which made you doubt yourself, you ain't feeling okay.
They will always pick on the people that are different.
Listen to your mind and listen to your vision.
We are different homie, it's like night and day.
Believe in myself, fuck what they say.
Lately all this shit has been weighing me down.
Really think it's gon' get the best of me now.
Telling me to keep on swimming and I ask 'em "how?".
When all I do is feel like I'll drown.
Anyway I guess I gotta keep my head up.
Working hard, hoping things will get better.
Didn't come this far to throw it all away.
Keep your head up, tomorrow is a brand new day.

[Outro]
Fuck man.
I just feel like.
Man, it's just been weighing on me.
Been feeling like, I just, had to get it out.
Shit's been eating at me.
Damn man.
Aight.