Downcast (feat. Reilly Embrey)

The mistress of misery beckons at my bedside
Her chilling grip sends shivers through the hip and down the spine
Time after time I've fallen victim to her grayscale shine
Monochromatic vision leaves me with a downcast mind
I only see the dusk
The light of the day is fucking foreign to me
I'm a slave to the sins of my former self and these chains are weighing on me
Consider this my tombstone eulogy; I welcome Death with open arms
Spit in my face, spit on my grave. I've seen no recompense for all the effort that I gave
And from the outside looking in it seems as though I've given up
But I'm just at the point where I no longer give a fuck
If dead men tell no tales
They'll etch my story into stone with coffin nails
I've been breathing in poison since birth
Here lies a man destined for the center of Earth
I hear the reaper calling
Every single regret hangs like a noose on my head
I've sewn my own lips shut with everything that I've said
Damned myself to Hell with every word I misread
The space in my chest where my heart should reside
Is filled with countless disappointments and lies
I give up
How am I supposed to carry on when I'm worth less than carrion?
Throw my remains to the wolves; send me to He with the hooves
Every breath is thin, every thought is black, every touch leaves decay in its wake
Every breath is thin, every thought is black, every wish ends with me in a coffin
I know I'm breaking down with every day that I'm awake
I'm praying that I'll be gifted with sleep in a box six feet closer to Hell
I'm tired and weary, beaten and bruised from the constant fight inside myself
I need a way out before I reach the point of no return