Exist

I find myself inside another realm
But sometimes I think about the things that were
I'm thinking about the past and my friends as well
I thought I always used to have a hereafter
I know I never used to try but now I have to

That's how I know
It's hard to be honest
And easy to be awful
With everyone else
That's why I know
It's easy to be awful
And so much harder to be honest
With myself

That's when I round out all of my finer edges
Just to let myself fall in love with
The things that I never had control of
My emotions pulled me left and right then
But I now know which way is wrong and right within

That's why I know
It's hard to be honest
And easy to be awful
With everyone else
That's why I know
It's easy to be awful
And so much harder to be honest
With myself

That's when I finally found my own way forwards
A little path that I can tread through softly
I was hoping that everything could never go wrong
Until I found out that it's all been awfully
Until I found out that it's all been on me

That's why I know
It's hard to be honest
And easy to be awful
With everyone else
That's why I know
It's easy to be awful
And so much harder to be honest

If I hold it all back now
Then why should I exist
At all

If I hold it all back now
Then the why should I exist
Why should I exist
At all