So Old N' Told

When I was a boy there was
Some terrible shit that went down
But still I hung around
To see if it would get better
And when I was a lad
Well I was lonely and I was sad
But still I hung around
To see if it would get better
And when I was the boss
Well there was so many things that I lost
But still I hung around
To see if I could win
But I’m getting so tired of this contest
Who comes out on top man I couldn’t care less
This smile you see I can do coz I practiced
And I ain’t ever gonna check this sadness
You trust truth bare witness

This shit is old, my angers been
In control since like forever
On my eleventh year
And what they stole, man I can
Never be whole not I ever
Not even when I am no longer here

So I built a wall
I built it sturdy and I built
It tall you cannot get around
It’s covered all in big graffiti
That nothing can erase coz it’s a
Permanent mark of disgrace that
I will always feel whenever I
Look in a mirror you know I tried to hide
I tried to cover it all up inside
But it still it comes around
Still it comes around
I can never be normal unless I fake it
You say that you can but I
Know you can’t take it
This song might be long but on
Truth it’s a statement that
I ain’t gonna ever shake the
Memory of that basement trust

This shit is old, my angers been
In control since like forever
On my eleventh year
And what they stole, man I can
Never be whole not I ever
Not even when I am no longer here

And in the night-time, imaginations
Breed deadly violence, inflicted my friends
Carry my brother, I think I’d rather, you
Had it better, write my own letter
Found by my mother read it to
No one in the end
But when I dream I dream of paradise
One where I live somebody else’s life
Why can’t I live somebody else’s life?
Before this fear was here I was alright
Before this fear was here I was alright
Before they led me down the stairs