Spaceman

I wasn't supposed to make it
Life was playing with my head
Survived a mental breakdown
Probably should've left me dead
Betrayed by all the people who
I called my closest friends
I felt like I might fall over the edge
I went from living on couches
And swinging hammers for rent
To sharing houses and ghettos with
Rats and roaches instead
I was ready to end it
Too tired to get up again
Then wrote my first hit record
With my last cigarette
Now wе're here, I'm so insecure
Everyone is insincere if money talks
Then it makes sense why I
Hear devils in my ears
Thought my fears would disappear
They amplified by people's cheers
Now I go to therapy 'cause
I'm no longer drinking beer
It's hard to see things clear
Through all the tears
Feel like I need to squint
Anxiety when I was broke
Depression now that I am rich
How'd I go from lonely kid whose
Only wish was pay the rent
To working so absurdly
Never see my family or my friends?

Hey, spaceman, how's the moon?
Was it worth everything you lost?
Do you like the view?
You aim for the stars, wait in the dark
The space take away all the
Weight in your heart
Hey, spaceman, if you had to choose

I was born to win and bred to lose
Struggled with the weed and booze
Couldn't seem to keep a job
My dreams were just a weak excuse
The money from my parents was
Enough to keep me fed they went in debts
So I could try to be famous 'fore I was dead
Our relationships were ruined
They got borderline abusive
I was sacrificing everything and
Focusing on music
I was homeless out on tour
I was so broke and shit was stupid
Guess I'm lucky that I blew before I blew it
Yeah now I'm famous, shit's so dangerous
Lucky dad made me courageous
I thought everything would change
But I'm still going through some changes
Finally figured out the basics
Then it all got complicated
I wish someone would've told me
That I'd hate this, yeah
I'm getting threatened by strangers
Bulletproof vest on me daily
Feel like I'm 'bout to go crazy
Tryna exceed expectations
How'd I go from praying tons that
Things would finally start to go
To getting here at last and
Only wanting to go home?

Hey, spaceman, how's the moon?
Was it worth everything you lost?
Do you like the view?
You aim for the stars, wait in the dark
The space take away all the
Weight in your heart
Hey, spaceman, if you had to choose

I always loved the stars
Thought I'd be happy way up there
They didn't look that far if they were
I didn't care
I built a rocket ship and blasted off
But now I'm scared
I thought I needed space, but I need air

Hey, spaceman, how's the moon?
Was it worth everything you lost?
Do you like the view?
You aim for the stars, wait in the dark
The space take away all the
Weight in your heart
Hey, spaceman, if you had to choose