Green and Brown and Grey

Look through you and attempt to escape
It is I from my thoughts and I lie awake
Beauty holds my eyes on your face
And I wish you will come
But I hope you will stay

See me (?) watching the world
And I wait for him to say the word
I will wait then and break no more
But the one I wanted isn't so sure

Is it all what they said it would be
All the fairytales like it was in your dreams
It'll never be true, don't lie to yourself
Where's the fun in that?
If you can lie with yourself

His eyes they will haunt me and will not lеt go
I won't breathe with him near mе I've too much to show?
If he walked away now and never turned back
I would be unaware of the things that I lack

Won't admit that I need him at all
But I do when I'm with him I feel so small
Comprehension of words that he says is too hard
And to understand means a shot in the dark

Is it all what they said it would be
All the fairytales like it was in your dreams
It'll never be true, don't lie to yourself
Where's the fun in that?
If you can lie with yourself

Is it you or me that I sing about?
Let me see if they notice I'll go around asking people
If they've been through it too
If it's not just me then who?

I can't find a reason to carry on crying
I feel (?) and now I'm just pining
I don't know what I should do any more
Should I open it up, let it out on the floor
Let you see yourselves the mess I've created
It can't be unspoken and I'm so (?)
I need you now more than ever I swear but you're
Not listening and you don't care

Is it all what they said it would be
All the fairytales like it was in your dreams
It'll never be true, don't lie to yourself
Where's the fun in that?
If you can lie with yourself