Black Water

I pray for the light
Which disappears from the surface of this world
Black phlegm begins to macerate
Suffuses more and more, a toxic deadly shore

But I can't quit this poison
I am an addicted person
I close my eyes and let it pour

I never see a reason
I'll never be okay
Devour light like brandy
It's getting heavier to take
I fight all my demons at once again

But I cannot tame the pressure in my lungs
Am I the one to abandon the throne?
No water for thе flames
Always ending up the samе
This searing fever

I am caught in the middle
Feel the heat and the shiver
Take it all till the last drop
Let it pour in these veins
I can feel every moment
Every grain, every second
I will dive again in blackened water
I dive again in unknown water

No
I choke on blackened water
Wells out of my sewn-up mouth
I can't breathe, I can't see
Disrupt this entity
Oh!

And I caught myself being down on my knees
Praying for peace
To something I know it doesn't exist

Lost in skewed cogitation
A billion combinations
There's no solution for an incomplete equation
Will you be my unknown?

But I cannot tame the pressure in my lungs
Am I the one to abandon the throne?
No water for the flames
Always ending up the same
This searing fever