If I Die Would You Carve Rubber Duckies On The Soil Above Me

I'm not good with words
Unless I'm writing songs
I worry when I say it to you
I would say it wrong

Mental gymnastics
My brain be feeling strong
But I can't seem to get out of it
Do I whisper or shout it

Really want you to know
But never want to let you know
But never want to see you go
But nevermind imma just go
crazy

Crazy how it goes
How we're so far when you're just a stone throw
Away

so throw the first stone at me
face up to you nah no acne
palms out I'm honest no acting

excuse my manners
why am I so careless
with the intros
open up to anyone
in goes
red flags that I overlook
like always
see the bright side of everything
like all days
see the sunlight land
pretty on your face

Thinking bout it on my own
I'll take it to my grave
Top it with my headstone
I was a good man
But I'm full of hate though
Love kept me running
But it kept running low

Running low running under
Running away running asunder
Taking apart taking for granted
All the seeds I ever planted

Regret’s the only tree
That I really ever pruned
The rest of my hopes dried up
Whirling in sand in a dune

Out of tune with my life
How am I ever gonna pitch?
I seek the runes in my strife
Like a old frail witch

And the ends of my power
How do I find rest?
Cos if don’t know solutions
How do I pass this test?

Chemistry
Carried me
To the source of the fire

Ancestry
Carry me
To the funeral pyre

If all I got is my spirit
Then let us drink it neat
Cos if I’m sober then I’m lost
And in this war I’m beat

I fight the battles everyday
Swallow it like a pill
Just enough to stay alive
Just enough not to feel
The real

I keep it at arm’s length
And that my friends
Is the illusion of my strength

Thinking bout it on my own
I'll take it to my grave
Top it with my headstone
I was a good man
But I'm full of hate though
Love kept me running
But it kept running low

and i'm soon running out

Running out of love
I'm running out of lovee come find me