Imagination

[Verse 1]
It's all for nothin’, everythin’ I've done
You don't want to live when you lose the one you love
You don't want to live when you hate who you've become
I don't go outside no more, I never see the sun
Antisocial, I don't wanna talk
Always been a introverted misfit ’til my heart stops
Speedin’ on the highway ’til the wheels fall off
Any chance of hope I had is gone now, it's long lost
I can't adapt to these changes, I’ll never be who they think
I've been depressed and I'm crazy, I can't let go of this drink
Everythin’ can comе to an end as quick as you blink
My life is still an open door, еveryone leaves
They all let me down, I don't know who I can trust
Tie a noose around my neck, I feel like I'm already hung
I ain't scared to die, already put a bullet in this gun
I'm a quitter, I’m a sinner, why fight when I can run?
I can't accept this life, I wake up in the nighttime
Drive up to the skyline when I'm gettin’ sky high
Memories and highlights flow into my mind
I think about the me that I lost through all the dark times

[Verse 2]
Maybe-Maybe I was made in somebody's imagination
Maybe I'm just losin’ it, I have hallucinations
If love equals happiness, I’m not part of that equation
I'll always be alone, sufferin’ in isolation
No one cares about me, I’m an afterthought
Floatin’ into nothingness, I feel like I'm an astronaut
When I express my feelings to people, they fucking laughed it off
They thought I'd be okay even though I told them they had it wrong

[Verse 3]
I wanna be important but I'm just a waste of space
I know that I'm nothin’ special, I know I can be replaced
I'm a monster, I’m not pure, ain’t no angel, I’m a disgrace
I'm a burden, dead weight that no one wants to embrace
And what I feel is real pain, I don't put on a performance
So don't minimize my problems ‘cause they're giant, enormous
I'm bad luck, what the fuck, I never had any fortune
It's one thing after another, they come without any warning
I tell it like it is, there's conviction in my words
Only few understand the energy that I exert
Makin’ music's my therapy, up ’til now I think it's worked
But now it doesn't matter, no matter what, I feel hurt
Suicidal thoughts, I lost my survival instincts
Nothin’ left to live for, I just wanna make my wrist bleed
Unstabled, I’m not grounded, I dig underneath in six feet
I look awake but no I ain’t, I’m three Z’s, in deep sleep
Paradox after paradox, I’m bein’ me
Digestin’ statements that I make the truth is what you make believe
It's how you perceive what's received
There's no right or wrong, only life and no one knows what it means
I hope it's only a dream