I Don’t Need You Now

There was a time when I thought I would die
Every time I thought of you, I'd cry
And think myself into a state
And drink myself to sleep too late
But what was pulling us and me apart
Was only breaking in my broken heart
Now it's controlled again, on hold again
And more broken-in than it's ever been

So I don't need you now
I can't believe how I ever wondered how
I'd ever make it without you, thinking about you
But I don't need you now

There was a time when I thought I should try
To make myself hate you to get by
It wasn't hard to do, to think of you
And all the things you put me through
But now I've had some time to contemplate
And I've discovered other things to hate
There's still bitterness I can't resist
But you're moving to the bottom of a pretty long list

So I don't hate you now
And I don't even wanna checkmate you now
I still don't like how much you don't want me to touch you
But I don't hate you now

And if I'm crying
Well, what did you expect?
I've been trying
But I still don't know how not to be a wreck

And though I'm still aware you're still out there
Still busy breaking someone's heart somewhere
And though to you it's nothing new
For once I've got no explaining to do

'Cause I don't know you now
And I don't have anything to show you now
Except for all of these apologies
That I don't owe you now

I don't need you, I don't need you
I don't need you, I don't need you
I don't need you, I don't need you
Think it's weird how much you don't want me to touch you
But I don't need you now