Revelations

I’m not tryin’ to be gangster no
I’m not tryin’ to be hard
I’m tryin’ to express myself in a way that will take some pain from my heart.
I’m in love you can trust that I meant it
But if you judge me based on my past
I’ll be fucked if I wait for that ending
Then again I’ve been fucked from the start.

So I tear apart pages
Been sitting here ages
Spitting my lyrics on stages
Thinking I wish I could taste it forever and it’s never wasted I bet it’s amazing.
Yeah I fell down, but I made it
To the places I knew I could take it
I’m not faking the news I was breaking to you I’ve been stating the truth since I came here (Facts).

And you haven’t a clue where I started
So if only you knew where I’d been
You would know that I’ve always had targets laid down paving the road to my dreams.
It’s the way that I work I’m grafter
I put the work in and get what I need
And I hold some hate to my father coz my sons two still he ain’t come see.

So one question I have that I’m asking
Coz you say that you can’t come visit
How do you get on that plane to Spain you prick when I saw that shit I was livid (It was mad).
It’s the fact that you act like you love him
It’s the fact that you act like you care
But minutes keep ticking on faster still I don’t see you there.

Every time that he asks (Every time that he asks)
Who sent that card (Who sent that card)
Who sent that gift well it don’t mean shit till he knows who you are (Till he knows who you are).
Yeah that’s all sad (Yeah that's all sad)
Does it hurt your heart (Coz it hurts my heart)
Coz it pulls on my strings every time that I think he don’t know who you are but
That’s on you thats not me dad.

Sometimes I try to remember
More time I try to forget
All the pain inside like the embers burning down anything it can get.
Got my son in my life and I need him
I got his hand as we walk every step
So near I can hear his heart beating
as he breathes I just hold every breath.

But the fact is I take it granted
All the time that I spend with my son
Coz I've got a good friend round here I swear hasn’t seen his kids in a month (facts).
And I know that it drives him mental (nuts)
And the blame goes straight on the mum (uh huh)
And I hope one day for the kid sake she will realise all this shit is dumb.

Coz life’s too short to hold grudges
But sometimes it’s hard to forgive
In a world where everyone punches first and nobody’s started to think.
In the end we pretend that it’s alright
Looking back at the things that we did
Every action has a reaction
In this world it’s the way that we live.

So I know I can’t talk for my sister
And I know I can’t speak for my bro
But I know that it breaks their heart every time they wait for a text on their phone.
Coz that man they call dad he’s a wanker
When he’s drinking won’t leave them alone (Prick)
If I see that bloke well it’s hands up hit hard bringing the blows.

Every time that I hit (Every time that I hit)
You best watch your lip (You best watch your lip)
Coz you could try laugh get straight up sparked
Man I’ll bust your shit (Yeah I’ll bust your shit).
Let us look at the past (Let us look at the past)
Coz it’s time to admit (Coz it’s time to admit)
All the things that you done how you treated my mum
All the times you’re a prick and it’s all coz of drink it’s a madness.

I remember the day that it kicked off
It was christmas I knew you was pissed
In the morning I woke to your music was stupid the things that you did.
You was screaming at mum so loud I got pissed off but at the time I was only a kid (I was only a kid)
Then you went upstairs with your drink I could hear you scream as you broke that sink and the water come

Pouring, pouring, pouring, pouring down through the kitchen light.
Then it come pouring pouring pouring pouring on to the kitchen sides
All the food mum prepped got drenched and I mean it
Couldn’t believe what I’d seen through my eyes, it’s not right.
All of the grief you supplied your the reason I started scream through the night
You’re the reason I learnt how to fight your the reason I learnt about war (Learnt about war).
You’re the reason I look at my life like man I’d be damned if it ends up like yours
There’s a reason I love my son so much I believe that I craved it before
You’re the reason I hate so much held so much hate till the day he was born.