Blind Ambition

[Verse 1]
I can see her, through the white of the snow
That she lined up for me on the mirror
The good ones will pick you up when you're down and out
I miss L.A. like a fever
I miss driving around smoking reefer
Tell my friends that I'll make my way out again
And I don't have to explain myself to them
I don't have to run them through the thought process
Of where my blind ambition stems
They just want to see me for who I am
For who I'm gonna be
So I ask myself, "how come I'm so far away from it?"
How come the water tastes like wine but I feel so far away from it?
I let the shivers run right down my spine
For a second, yeah, I feel okay from the art I make
But it comes with blood and it takes me away
Can you calm me down yet?
Can you pull me back to the dirt I came out of?

[Chorus]
It's what's in my heart again
It's what's in my heart again
It's what's in my heart again
It's what's in my heart again

[Verse 2]
But it hurts like hell when you know yourself
'Cause I feel too much
God I really wanna love 'cause I'm done with hate
I just need some drugs and a house on the hill
Where the Malibu line is
That's where my time was spent
That's where every drive I ever drive in my mind ends
That's why I'm diggin' here
And after all the parties end with empty hands
I wanna know that I tried it
She said "you gotta realize it
And fuckin' fight 'til you're dying"
I remember the time spent, and the winds all pushed me home

[Chorus]
It's what's in my heart again
It's what's in my heart again
It's what's in my heart again
It's what's in my heart again