Tell the Truth

I could tell the truth if I wanted to
I could tell the truth if I wanted to
I could tell the truth if I wanted to
Wanted to

It's so sad to see, you're working me over
Oh Lord, again?!
I'm so glad to be... partially sober
I've lost too many friends
How can I compete with the man that I promised you?
I tried so hard to bend
Don't tell me who I was or who I want to be
You're doing it again

I can tell that you saw all my love
When he came into our lives
Does it hurt you inside to know that I'll be there for him?
I swear that I will fight
Till I die if that's what it takes
But for now I'm alive
And I'm standing tall for Haven's sake

I couldn't tell the truth if I wanted to
I couldn't tell the truth if I wanted to
I couldn't tell the truth if I wanted to
Wanted to, to

I've thrown ambition to the fire, (hope melted away)
You let your promises expire
And I swear that you'll never hear the end of this

I can tell that you saw all my love
When he came into our lives
Does it hurt you inside to know that I'll be there for him?
I swear that I will fight
Till I die if that's what it takes
But for now I'm alive
And I'm standing tall for Haven's sake

These are the moments where I feel my heart skip a beat
Trials of adulthood, only ice below my feet
These are the moments where I feel your hand fade away
These are the moments that I wish that I had fucking stayed
These are the moments that I had put the pills down
These are the moments that I wish that I was in the ground
These are the moments where I wish I could tell the truth
These are the choices that I made
This is me living without you