Close My Eyes (Dedicated to Sean P)

I think it's fair to say that I'll never be same
Life full of surprises but it's a evil game
None of us was ready couldn't handle the emotions
Crying on my sons bed my tears could fill up an ocean
I just couldn't hold it how this possibly be right
We just took a picture at the Vibe last night
Why the fuck you in the hospital you fighting for your life
Tubes sticking out your body I just couldn't believe my eyes
My heart wasn't broken it was shattered
Can't gather my thoughts cause nothing really mattered
This shit is so sad
I don't know if I'll make it
I don't wanna accept it God you got to be mistaken
Cause why would you take him that was one of my brothers
His favorite day of the year why couldn't he just recover
Maybe I'm just selfish cause I want him to stay
Now it's hard for me to sleep and its tough for me pray

When I close my eyes I'm a think about the times
We rock so many shows you was always on my side
When I close my eyes I see you and I cry
My soul was is in pieces I don't think I will survive
When I close my eyes I ask God why
I don't understand I wish you survived
I know it takes time
But it's hurting my pride
I miss you every time I close my eyes

I just keep on crying and I wasn't by myself
I refused to leave your side
I saw you take your last breath
That's when I realized the true trauma of death
So many lives you impacted what a legacy you left
Not only a entertainer but also a ref
And I wrestled with myself
I should have texted when you left
It's so crazy cause I never missed a chance for you to sing
And I never got the chance to see you perform in the ring
Now I'm asking myself
What kind of friend are you really
Tomorrow is never promised
Tez you wasn't that busy
You supported everybody in the front row screaming
This one's for the dreamers
Never thought I would be dreaming
That we was together still can't believe you gone
Forever a gentleman I don't know how I'm moving on
Calling Rob Lee and hearing him break down
Forced me to sit down and just cry on the ground
It was like movie scene that day
Again I'm thinking no way
So many people wanna talk but I have nothing to say
Ask me how I feel I told you I was devastated
Took road trips who knew Heaven was your destination
The last time we was together keep playing in my head
You said I love you bro
And now my brother is dead
You made us all cry
And deep down inside
I know you are in Heaven
I just wish you were alive

When I close my eyes I'm a think about the times
We rock so many shows you was always on my side
When I close my eyes I see you and I cry
My soul was is in pieces I don't think I will survive
When I close my eyes I ask God why
I don't understand I wish you survived
I know it takes time
But it's hurting my pride
I miss you every time I close my eyes