Vulnerable (Interlude)

Sittin' back with my phone at hand, gettin' slowly mad
Cuz everything I type just won't go as planned It's all going bad
All of it is whack I'm not even sure what I wrote will land
Lackin' motivation, I really feel like a hopeless man
Listen to my old songs, thinkin' I was more doper then
Listen to the music of artists I'm not more doper than
Confidence is lowered, I'm wonderin' when it's gonna end
So I could just get back to that rapper, I truly know I am
Hope I can, cuz people be tellin' me they devoted fans
Even said they pay for my content, fuck an only fans
But in my mind, I'm thinkin' they sayin it cuz we close as friends
Or they just tryna make me feel b- Fuck, here I go again
Searchin' for new ideas, when I do try to go with them
In my opinion, all my best work is from when I go within
Tryna be authentic, give listenin' somethin to connect with
But when I can't find an entrance, say forget it, then I close the pen
Weeks pass, I won't have nothin' new written or to send
To folks who say, I know you got somethin' new written or to send
I don't wanna let nobody down, I hate to disappoint
But I can't reach the point of creation when no emotions in
If I ain't in the mood, then I'm definitely not bout to go pretend
That I am, cus then I'll write some bullshit people won't commend
Never wrote some shit I didn't feel before and don't intend
On startin' now, I'd rather stay true to myself than go with trends
I'm stackin' up on songs in my catalog, they not bad at all
Actually kinda strong, but part of me feels like they don't transcend
The levels that I'm tryna pass, in that regards, they kinda trash
I'll never be a good a lyricist, as Kendrick, Cole, and Em
Hate when other songs get more love than mine, cuz I know I spent
Way more time and effort on what I did vers what they present
They just copy-pasting what the mainstream artists makin
While I pour my heart and soul, and in return, I get like, no respect
Yeah
Shit, no respect
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Yeah
No respect