Million Ways

You're keeping track of me like a CCTV
Thinking that I'm problem free and that my life is easy
I've been working hard to win this fight you gotta believe me
I've been trying to survive you hurting all of my feelings
Every day you keep on spitting lies just to please these
Depressed thoughts on your mind that you think that we can't see
My life's a movie but it ain't a masterpiece
I wanna be the director but you're destroying my piece
A million ways to love you and a million ways just to hate
A million ways to let you go and let all this fade away
A million ways to protect you
And a million ways to feel safe
A million ways to hold you close but only one reason to stay
You don't feel the need to be a nice human being
So you're just being irritating and mean
Still you can't see the million ways that you've broken me
The truth is unspoken but the my pain could be seen from overseas
The opposite of honesty is your favourite meal
We're livin in a mess that I really hate to deal with
I should move on and get rid of all the evil
Things you put me through saying "I do it all for you"
A million ways to love you and a million ways just to hate
A million ways to let you go and let all this fade away
A million ways to protect you
A million ways to feel safe
A million ways to hold you close but only one way I can take oh