With Others in the Equation

(My bedroom’s always wintry
And I can’t get out of it
But I have... lately
I’ve gone onto my porch
I’ve looked at all the bees as they go)

I am the best at contingency planning
It’s why this is a detriment to me
I know how to get where I should be
I just hate it when others are in the equation
If I had health I would be the (perfect) person
And I could list all the reasons for why that’s...
My firmest standing theory

Half of me is out of time
And half is in the future
I have no current timе of mine
To boast about
In the future I’ll disintеr
All of present time’s warm dead bodies

Does it matter, how, how
Does it matter, how, how