Giving Up

Girl you know it's complicated
I know that I won't ever make it
Blowing up my phone like I'm famous
I ain't trying to be for real, just playing

You know I've been on my own for ages
Trying to figure out my paces
If this is living, I don't want to exist
Cause I hate this
Wait now
I'll tell you all the things that I gotta let out
Yeah it's all mess up
And it feels like all the people I loved are giving up

I've been losing lots of sleep
Wondering what you think of me
Am I a burden you just want to ignore
Or am I everything you want and more
I've been counting pills and fears
Wishing I's just not here
Praying on a shooting star
You know that I've been praying on a shooting star

All of these stars have a reason
But I'm falling to pieces
Give me something I can believe in
A reason to try, a reason to lie