reminiscing

I thought
It was nice in the moment
But then that all followed with months of regret
In the end
I was broken
Yet I can't help but remember those nice moments
I was drawn
To amusement
Yet leaving you lonely was never my intent
Polar opposites
Is what you would call it
It never worked out
Yet these days
I'm still
Reminiscing and I'm missing you
Toxic and I miss it
Probably better that I ditched it
From the start
It was best that we part
Because the pain would be too much to bear
I'm still reminiscing
We would call and go chatting for hours
Staying the same was never in my power
You used to be my best friend
No time to remake those amends
Yeah, it never worked out, yet these days I'm still
Reminiscing and I'm missing you
Toxic and I miss it
Probably better that I ditched it
From the start
It was best that we part
Because the pain would be too much to bear
Some days I resent you
Other days I'm missing you
Memories linger in the back of my mind
Yet, I don't wanna go back in time
To how things were
Because it fucked me up
Fucked me up
I'm still
Reminiscing and I'm missing you
Toxic and I miss it
Probably better that I ditched it
From the start
It was best that we part
Because the pain would be too much to bear
I'm still reminiscing