Habits

I've been tryna figure out all the basics
Tracing back my steps I hate this
Hoping one day I can say that I made it
But starting where I'm at that's the only way I'm getting back to the path I'm tryna go
Running low on time to pass yeah
Feeling like it's only going faster
I remember when I said that that this was my year
Well dammit look at where I'm at that was last year
Feels like I'm a wreck, a disaster
Second guessing in my head like does it matter
It's outta my control, I never had it
I'm running red lights through the traffic
Yeah
Well I'm tryna break out of these habits
But I've fallen out of touch with the magic
Cause I've been getting used to the madness
Feels like all I know is how to manage
Though all I wanna do is see them vanish
These habits yeah
Caught up living like I'm in the past yeah
Going back and forth It's automatic
Even though I've tried to break these habits
I've managed to stray
Far away from dealing with my attitude
Easy to pretend it's not my own excuse
But at this point there's nothing else I could lose
Opened my eyes and I finally see
All of those times that I've lied to me
Easy to think that I'm meant to be
Nothing more than just the side of me in misery
Well I'm tryna break out of those habits
But I've fallen out of touch with the magic
Cause I've been getting used to the madness
Feels like all I know is how to manage
Though all I wanna do is see them vanish
These habits yeah
Cause I've been getting used to the madness
Feels like all I know is how to manage
Though all I wanna do is see them vanish
These habits yeah
Running low on time to pass yeah
Feeling like it's only going faster
I remember when I said that that this was my year
Well dammit look at where I'm at that was last year
Feels like I'm a wreck, a disaster
Second guessing in my head like does it matter
It's outta my control, I never had it
I'm running red lights through the traffic