Self Doubt

There's a bit of back and forth in every word I say
Like somewhere along the line I committed to hesitate
Constantly living in a mental debate
Begin to wonder if I'll ever escape this fate
These words in my mouth leave a bitter taste
Leaving me to wonder if there was a better way
If I let myself worry I'll keep withering away
Wishing my mind didn't leave me in disarray
Relentless
Tormented by endless questions
Dragging my heart down
I just want to figure myself out

I'm always drowning in self doubt
It only takes one thought to turn everything around
Always losing control
To thoughts that I can't control

And it can be a long road to reality
Pulling myself back from the brink of insanity
So misguided I've tried to hide the fact that my mind is always divided
Because I've been breaking down inside
Like the mechanism making up my mind is fried
With a blinding light as the fire takes flight burning me alive eclipse the night
Looking for a way to locate some sense
There's gotta be a good way this all ends
Desperate for a little bit of confidence
Living in an indecision always makes my heart tense
Relentless
Tormented by endless questions
Dragging my heart down
I just want to figure myself out

I'm always drowning in self doubt
It only takes one thought to turn everything around
Always losing control
To thoughts that I can't control

All this indecision coming through my vision
Focused on the heart beat but it's like I never listen
Surroundings feeling like they're coming down around me
I want to leave better than I was when you found me
Paranoia hoping to destroy us
Dragging my heart down
I just want to figure myself out

I'm always drowning in self doubt
It only takes one thought to turn everything around
Always losing control
To thoughts that I can't control
Self doubt
It only takes one thought to turn everything around
Always losing control
To thoughts that I can't control