From the Sidelines

From the ashes of the phoenix fade to black
A neon light catches the water and I watch as it refracts
Practically factually lost in the fallacy of sabotaging my own act of sanity like:
Am I the problem
Am I the fraud
Am I the child caught playing as God
I wish I was not but I'm lost in a thought
That caused the world to fall off as I walk
And now I am lost in the world that I wrought
Earth is gone but my wandering's not
A comet crashes in the sea of disbelief
I close my eyes to fireflies and all the waves crash over me
If I sleep inside this dream what kind of change will I see
Inception grown from tampering with complex machinеry
I risk it all every day, my heart is scarrеd out on my sleeve
Underneath all these anxieties I feel it's hard to breathe

I've spent my time
Watching from the sidelines
Pretending everything is alright
Wondering if you will be mine

Inside the smoke it's like my lungs are made of stone
I only choke out fragments of the words that I would call my own
In front of me stumbling words that I'm fumbling probably would've been better off mumbling
I am the problem
I am the fraud
I am the child caught playing at God
Maybe I'm wrong but then maybe I'm not
This rock and a hard place has me pretty caught
I can't decide which side I am on
I wonder where the line was drawn
If I retreat to mysteries of life's complexities
If I never pick a side at least can I feel free to be
Anything I want to be I am constantly in flux
I trust the world has made a home for all of those like us
Leave me in my reverie and trust that I won't let this body rust
Our glowing aura brushes light across the growing dusk

I've spent my time
Watching from the sidelines
Pretending everything is alright
Wondering if you will be mine
I've spent my time
Watching from the sidelines
Pretending everything is alright
Wondering if you will be mine
I've spent my time
Watching from the sidelines
Pretending everything is alright
Wondering if you will be mine