Pulse

Everyday I wake up
With weight on my shoulders
With pressure on my chest
I get up, I give up
I have no purpose
No reason to be alive
The constant search for meaning is clouded by my eyes

Every second, every minute, everyday
It's exactly the same
I tell myself I'm okay

I know I worry, yeah I know I worry but
I am not okay
Unhappiness and loneliness
Only fuel the cause
An empty shell, a mannequin
Of the person I once was

I'm leading myself blind
From nothing to nowhere
With only the sound of my heartbeat
Letting me know I'm alive

My reflection is a stranger
Imperfection’s in my nature
Why do I put this pressure on myself?
Every second, every minute, everyday
It's exactly the same
I tell myself I'm okay
I know I worry, yeah I know I worry but

I am not okay
Unhappiness and loneliness
Only fuel the cause
An empty shell, a mannequin
Of the person I once was
I am not who you see
I am not who I'm supposed to be

I am not who you see
I am not who I'm supposed to be
No one knows me but myself
And I hate what “myself" is

No one knows me but myself
And I guess that's the way it'll stay
No smiling, just fade in the background
I just want to be okay
I am not okay