CONDITIONALLY

Lately
I don't buckle in while i'm driving
I never planned
On being here this long, i'm trying

To say the least
I'm in pieces
cnxiety
Depression creeping
Pain increasing
Wanna be numb now
God im feinin
But i'm fine now

It's crazy to me
You believe these things you say
When some years ago
You would hold me when i'd lay, with you
When i was hurting and i needed you
To love me, unconditionally
Now you look at me differently

Your love is conditional
cnd your hate is intentional
I spent so much time
Trying to make you think right
But i can't go change your mind
cnd it's really not my job to try
Mutilated my body
Cause you fucked with my mind
cnd you didn't think twice
‘bout the tears i would cry
Im dramatic i'm disgusting
Heard that a couple times
You didnt give a fuck
‘bout that thing wit that guy
Cause you never gave a fuck
Less it was something that you liked

To say the least
I'm in pieces
cnxiety
Depression creepin
Pain decreasing
Yeah im numb now
I was feinin
So fuckin high now
So fuckin high now

Fuckin crazy to know
You really do these things you do
When a long time ago
You said i, love you for you
Wipe my tears, i really needed you
To love me, unconditionally
Let down consistently

Lately
I don't buckle in while im driving
I never planned
On being here this long, im trying