Stare at the Wreckage

He said "He wants to come over"
I said "I've got too much to do"
He said "He feels like a loner"
I said "Well yeah what else is new"

I'm done with trying
I'm tired of guessing how you feel
I hope you're alright
But I don't know how to deal

And I was struggling
Needed to go home
And I was homesick
But I loved your new songs
Came to surprise you
When you were in Chertsey
We got no sleep
But everything was easy

I couldn't open your message
I tried to lie tried to pretend
I had to stare at the wreckage
I thought I'd lost you as a friend

So much of me is because of you
I tried my best

I'm done with trying
I'm tired of guessing how you feel
I hope you're alright
But I don't know how to deal